The irony of the four seasons is that when it comes to Summer heat, I yearn for the Winter cold. Not so much as snow though. Here in Utah though it feels more like we only have 2 seasons, Winter and Summer and they both seem to last for ever. Especially when the air conditioning is down and the heater has no controller switch so instead of giving heat, it becomes a burning furnace.
Anytime now, my son Leveni and his wife Fusi will be having their very first child. I will be a grandmother and I am ecstatic. My family tree is growing and instead of being one of the branches, we are slowly edging towards the deeply rooted roots of the tree. We are building a foundation for a future generation just like my great, great, great grandparents did and the ones before them and so on and so forth.
I don't know what it is but each year it just seems to get busier and busier. I'm wondering if it's just because I'm getting older and older and that my days of living are numbered. I'll say one thing for sure though is that, I'm realizing just how short life is and taking one day at a time now. Enjoying each day and the simple pleasures it brings. Enjoying my children and showering them with hugs and kisses whenever I have the chance for who knows when and where our Makers will call one of us back.
So far, Summmer has been a blast. Of work for me and fun for the kids. This week is the very first week that they actually get to stay home and have time to do their chores. Tomorrow though, our Toki family reunion starts and so we will all be back on the grind once again. Places to go and talents to show. Yes we always have these Talent Shows during Reunions.
As for blogging, I'm gratified that I discovered it at the time that I did a few years ago. It became a much needed outlet for my emotions until I can learn how to deal with them accordingly. Now, I can enjoy blogging without having that overbearing urgency to spill it all out on my blog. It's quite liberating to be at peace with one's emotions and life. Not that my life is perfect now. Far from it. It's just that I'm accepting things as they are and the realizations that life will always be a work in progress like myself. Taking one step at a time.
I'm a full time working mother now. Funny but I'm hustling every day at work for sales and to make money for my family. Since April 1st of this year I've been back to work full force. I have no guilt now because all my children are pretty much grown and can fend for themselves while I work to bring in the dough since my husband is still unable to work. I love my job and I see the hands of God in every direction our lives are leading to. His purpose is clear and we are where He wants us to be at the right place and at the right time. I have that brightness of faith in His will for He knows everything that is good for me and my family. I always put my trust in the Lord.