Saturday, December 26, 2015

Camilla

For the first time in history, my son Petueli introduced his girlfriend to us.  She is no stranger as I've known her since she was in high school through volleyball.  He's been in love with this girl since "forever" if I may say and to finally, finally see them together nearly brings me to tears.  Years ago before he left on his mission, they dated and since then, no one has ever captured my son's heart but Camilla.  It has always been Camilla from the beginning and I'm afraid, no one else will do for my Leli. 

When he returned from his mission, he attempted hooking up again with her.  There was some set back as  Camilla is a very popular girl.  She has many friends and her life was busy with traveling, work and friends.  I felt his frustration as he backed off but he was willing to wait.  I'll never forget when he said this:  "Camilla is too busy with living her life and her friends but I am a very patient man mother."  Leli has always have that sense of humor that eases even the most crucial situations and circumstances.  He's very focused and confident, willing to work hard for what he needs and what he wants.  I've never seen anyone so full of "patience" as I've watched him wait it out for Camilla.  Almost like a hermit, the monotonousness of his life.  LOL.  I feared he will remain single forever if Camilla didn't come around.

So last night, we finally got to meet her (not my first time though but theirs) at the hospital when visiting my mother-in-law.  It was a shocker because just when we least expected it, he throws a curve ball that almost floored us.  He brings in his girl.  Such a sweet feeling to see how happy and comfortable he is with her.  Camilla is a beautiful girl and they make one dashing couple.  I can honestly say, she is worth the wait for my son.  His face lit up when he's with her and boy, I've never seen him so proud and so content.   Then Grandma Sisilia took over the whole visit.  Just being herself and I love her for it.  So straightforward as she talks about temple marriage, having children and making blankets for their babies.  We laughed and laughed as she went on and on.  It was obvious my son had already warned her about his grandmother. 

Leli is a very private guy.  He likes his privacy and bringing Camilla to meet us means serious business.  I pray she won't break his heart.  I've tried to fix him up with some really nice girls but in vain.  He told me:  "I'm never going to marry someone my mother fixed me up with!"  I reminded him of Abraham and Isaac.  Some of the best marriages in the bible was fixed and arranged by parents.   

His love for Camilla though is not an uncommon love but an enduring love.  Their love story is not new but it is unique in their own way.  A very special love and I am ecstatic that Camilla has finally chosen to come around otherwise my son will be doomed to a lonely life forever without her.  He has been such a great blessing to us and I know he will bring great blessings to his own family one day.  His sister Sisilia though has her doubts.  I already love Camilla because I've known all along that my son loved her for a long long time now and still do and will continue to do so.    

Sunday, December 13, 2015

There Are No Dead Ends with God


In deep gratitude I uttered a pray within my heart as to how things seems to be working out when you least expect it to.  These past few days have been filled with new challenges and trying out new venues.  There was hope and as I was expressing my thank yous to Him, I got a brief impression in my mind of a soft gentle voice reminding me:  "You should already know by now, there are no dead ends with Me".  Just when you thought you've reached the end of your road, another unexpected and unfathomable road opens us.  Just when you thought nothing will ever change, that's when He shows you that "your ways are not my ways" and "let me show you another way, a better way".  When you feel like you've given your all and have done the best you can, He shows you how much further you still can go and how much more you  still can do.  With Him, the possibilities are endless and the "impossible" becomes possible for with God, nothing is impossible. 

Self doubt exist when we put all our trust in our own hands and fail to acknowledge that there's a higher power and that He's there for us.  His hands have always played an incredible role in my life whether I wanted to acknowledge it or not.  It's those moments that I don't acknowledge Him that everything starts falling apart.  This always leads to a rude awakening which assuredly ends with me falling on my knees asking for forgiveness for my stubbornness and pride.  This morning I prayed for many things.  My prayer was answered but not without a lot of work on my part.  When we ask for something from Him, we have to be willing to show how much we want it and then work towards getting it.  If you don't get it, that simply means you're no ready for it or it's not time yet.  Or, it could simply means it wasn't meant to be so try something else. 

"There are no dead ends with Me".  It's as if a flicker of a flame barely giving light and all at once it burst into a burning fire within me.  With God everything is hopeful, positive and bright.  There's a picture frame on top of my Computer desk in my room that quotes:  "You future is as bright as your faith".  When you are hopeful, full of faith and positive, your eyes are opened up to the many blessings that has been coming your way all along and that there are many more yet to come.  To receive more blessings, we have to cheerfully count the ones we already have and make sure we are acknowledging His hands in everything.

Tonight I rejoice in the knowledge that God can make anything possible.  I rejoice in the fact that He is full of grace and mercy.  I marvel at His unconditional love towards me, so undeserving and unworthy.  That He loves me enough to forgive me and continue to lead and guide me.  Tonight I rejoice that there are no dead ends with God.  Our progress is everlasting and Eternal just as He is Everlasting and Eternal.