Thursday, May 31, 2012

What a Life!

Talk about fast and furious.  I feel like I've lived in a Race Car Tracks these past few days.    Zooming and zipping through life.  Navigating here and there between my family, my parents, work and my siblings.  Here are just a few things that took place while I wasn't here blogging:

*My son's Mixtape is doing great.  He's already getting a lot of positive feedback from the public and a lot of exposure.  This is his very first one and it's doing great.

*My husband is angry and will remain angry because our daughter Sisilia moved out.   The;  "When in Rome, do as Romans do" just doesn't fly with him.  Within our Tongan culture, there is no such thing as kids moving out until they are married and it doesn't matter how old you are.

*Son who's serving a mission got transferred to Mililani, Oahu in Hawaii.  He's got 2 more months before he gets to come home.

*Finally found a Zumba place close by to my new home so I've recommitted myself to Zumba.  Such an awesome workout.  It's at 5:30 in the morning and it's insane that I can actually get up and get myself there at this hour.

This coming up weeks are going to be super busy.  Graduations and all.  In and out of state.  

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

What Kept Me

Distracted, distraught and a little deranged.  LOL.  So many things have kept me from really sitting down and pouring my heart out on this blog.

1.  My mom has took a turn for the worse.  She can no longer chew her food.  Nor can she suck on a straw.  We have now resolve to using syringes to feed her.  I couldn't help but wept every time I visit her.   Just seeing her like this breaks my heart.    Her face signifies how much weight she has lost.  To-day I found out she had a fever so my sister-in-law gave her some baby Ibuprofen.  It aid in making her more comfortable.

My father calls me, because he still can't understand that there's nothing else that the doctors can do for her.  "Sela,  isn't there anything else they can do for her?"
"Don't they have any medication to give her strength?"
On and on he goes.  "Are we going to just let her die?"
I had to explain to him again and again that there's nothing else the doctors can do for my mom.
I just can't say the obvious to him.

2.  My son finally releases his first Mixtape.  Had over 1500 viewers in one day.  He  is so excited and we're all excited too.  Big things are happening for him.  He's got the talent and the creativity for music and I'm so proud of him.  Here's the link for his songs.  It's completely free as it is for promotional purposes only.

3.  Finally got a second job.  After interviews and interviews for different jobs.  Will be starting on the 29th and I can't wait to start.

4.  Daughter Patiola has been so sick with the flu.

5.  Almost done with unpacking.  Still more boxes to unpack but it's slowly but surely going.  

6.  Just called to be the new ward Organist and also Primary Pianist.  

I wonder what's coming in the next few months?  Nothing I can't handle I pray.   Looking forward to August for my son's returning from his mission. 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

My Sweet Angel Mother

She kept an enormous Book of Remembrance when we were growing up.   In there I'd read good things about each and every one of her children.  She may not know it then, but those entries kept me striving to be the daughter she deserves.  There was nothing pretentious about my mother.  She was void of malice, filled with unselfish love and an example of virtue, modesty and hard work.

This woman, my mother touched the lives of not only her children, but so many others of her extended family.  Our home was never empty of her relatives, coming from Ha'apai, seeking education, employment and a better way of life.  She provided for us and provided for them.  Her, with the help of my father for she was one of the first women in Tonga to hold down a 9-5 job as a secretary for the high school across the street.  Liahona High School.

'Ana Patiola Fekitoa Tuita.   I miss the woman she used to be.  Always thriving in whatever it is she sets her mind to doing.  For 30 years she labored diligently.  Not only in her job but also in the church and our family.  She was a Primary President.  A ward Relief Society President as well as the Stake Relief Society President.  We never lacked for anything when we were growing up.  I've always wondered how it is that my father, who was an uneducated man, hooked up with my mother who was very much educated and extremely bright.  They brought a balance to our family though, that to this day, I'm still trying  to bring to my own family.

For the past four to five years, she has been battling breast cancer and had suffered a stroke that left her bedridden.  I think the only thing that keeps her here on this earth is the prayers of my father.  My father who prays like he's conversing with God face to face.  Whom, will simply wither away if she leaves him.  Their love is rare.  Bond by trust, honesty and kindness.  Sealed for all time and throughout all eternity.

I see her beautiful, sweet angel face.  I remember everything about her.   Her, always short and cropped hair, now so white and long.  Her skin flawless and fair.  Beautiful inside and out.  Thank you mom, for all that you have done.  Your legacy will continue on within us, your children, as well as your grandchildren and their children's children.  I pray I can be half the mother you were to us.  I love you mom and may you have a happy and blessed mother's day.